You’ll never know if you don’t try.
I spent summer watching
the weather make up it’s mind,
sleeping when I shouldn’t have
and going for walks when I should
have been sleeping. I spent summer
waiting for phone calls that didn’t
come, and when they didn’t come
I didn’t call. I watched mosquitos
land on my thighs, my wrists,
my shoulders, and I did not slap
them away. I spent summer googling
what you can and cannot say
on the Suicide Hotline but never
trying, I spent months waiting,
sometimes for nothing, summer
is for wasting.